Introspective

 As the sun goes down shadows creep
Consume the dark they sneak and creep
Stretching upon sidewalks
Curling around trees
Abandoning light they sneak and creep

Shadows of doubt
Shadows of insecurity
Shadows of immoral clout
Shadows of impulsivities

Shadows consume me and control my life
Inviting in unwanted strife
Strife smothers out faith and hope
Leaving me to wither and mope

At dawn I seem to close my eyes
Opening them at dusk to cry
Tears of shadows tears of pain
Stress and tension rack my brain
Try to block tears out my eyes won’t close
Shadows surround my every being
Felt inside outside unseen
Shadows sneak and creep
-Caylea,
Cralle Day House

I UNDERSTAND I AM JUST BEGINNING
I AM JUST BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND

Part 1 I am

I have identity in culture
I am mulatto
More than that I am an intelligent young woman
In my prime my adolescence
I am fragile in my youth
My emotions can sometimes be oversensitive
My immature emotions may spiral out of control
In time I’ll learn ways to deal
I am blunt
I am inquisitive in all things
Sexuality meaning conscience…..life
I am not ashamed of me not ashamed to be me
I am identity I discover
My discoveries bring to me strong emotions
Sometimes good sometimes bad
I can be impulsive in my delinquency sinful acts can be expected
Accept this reality I am human product of my environment
I am not ashamed of my mistakes
I trust in myself I am all I have to trust in
I like to be around people like me
Unique Sublime beauties
I am the future the next generation
Understand this. Know this. Believe this
I will prosper.
-Caylea,
Cralle Day House 

I UNDERSTAND I AM JUST BEGINNING
I AM JUST BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND

 Part 2 I can

I can be self-absorbed or a social butterfly
I know how to fly, As well as land, I do both well, I rarely crash
Some people like me. Some people don’t. I like myself.
People push me to my limits still I stay on top of my game
Remaining unchanged I am determined I will succeed
Immaturity is fun I will enjoy it while I’m young
I can accept responsibilities when I want to
I can be mature when I have to
I live on my own terms…To survive to keep my sanity
I can compromise with people like me - real G’s
When I abide by others rules I have one demand
Don’t try to belittle or berate me. Respect me.
Age is irrelevant
Respect me
Heed what I say know what I’m about
I can rise above condescending expectations
Set by egocentric morons passing through my life
I am not inferior
I cannot be shunned take heed of me
Who I can be my identity
What do you notice what do you see
Me. Just Me. Acknowledge my potential
I am the future the next generation
Understand me. Know me. Believe me.
I will prosper
Caylea,
Cralle Day House

I UNDERSTAND I AM JUST BEGINNING
I AM JUST BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND

Part 3 I want

I want to resist temptation
Set out to cause failures for me
I want to be loved and let love be me
I want to chill on my couch eating popcorn and watching movies
I want to forget the adversities I’ve experienced at C.H.D.
I want to live my life
Without worry of deceit
I want to feel secure to know I have prestige
I want an interior tranquility I want to feel complete
I want to float around the sky
In a big hot air balloon
Not contemplating anything
But the mystic beauty of the clouds beneath the moon
These are my wants
Soon they will be my accomplishments
I am the future the next generation
Understand that. Know me. Believe this
I will prosper
Caylea,
Cralle Day House